When I found out I was pregnant I had every intention of keeping a journal of the pregnancy, recording all my ups and downs, excitement and fears and all the key moments over the 9 months - something that I could look back on in years to come and share with Baby Matt when they're older. Unfortunately that went out the window when the morning sickness kicked in around week 6! After more than 10 weeks of horrific sickness (I honestly thought I was going to die at one point!) I finally started to feel somewhat human again, but by human I mean able to get out of bed, shower, get dressed and keep some food down. I can honestly say for the majority of it so far, I have really not enjoyed pregnancy!
I think I had a somewhat romantic idea that pregnancy would be a breeze. Yes I expected to feel a little rough for a few weeks, after all it was the rough feeling that convinced me I should do a pregnancy test... but I expected that to pass fairly quickly and to move into the 'glowing' phase, where I would have amazing skin and hair and look fantastic, full of the joy of growing a new life. I couldn't have been more wrong!!! Initially the nausea wasn't too bad - if I got hungry, I would start to feel bad but as soon as I ate something I would feel better. I thought "this isn't too bad" and was super excited about what was to come.
Around week 6, just after Mr Matt returned to work for a full 6 weeks, the sickness really kicked in and I have never felt so bad in all my life. Getting out of bed was a struggle, showering was a nightmare and brushing my teeth was just plain traumatic. For a few weeks I managed to struggle through and made it into work, although I did spend an inordinate amount of time in the ladies. By week 8, I couldn't cope with it any more and was signed off on the sick by my doctor. I couldn't physically brush my teeth without it making me throw up and I was finding it impossible to keep food down. I was starting to struggle to drink water and keep that down too and after a trip to the Midwife's drop in clinic, I was admitted to my local hospital with Hypermesis Gravidarum and to be rehydrated.
The midwives, doctors and nurses at Wansbeck General Hospital were fantastic and very reassuring - as I'd not been able to keep anything down, including my pregnancy vitamins and folic acid I was convinced my sickness would have damaged Baby Matt. I was given an early scan to check I wasn't carrying twins and also to reassure me that everything was ok, despite feeling so ill it did actually help to make me feel a bit better. I was reassured that even though I may not be getting the nutrients I needed, I had a store of them in my body that Baby Matt would be using up (another reason for me feeling so ill) and the worse the morning sickness, the healthier the baby should be as they think the sickness is caused by incredibly high levels of the pregnancy hormone. After a day and a half on a drip and some anti sickness meds I felt pretty good and was discharged with a stash of pills to help with sickness. However after a couple of days as home, the sickness kicked back in and I felt like I was back at square one... I'm not sure I believe these people who say they wish they could be pregnant every day of their lives, so far pregnancy has been less than fun!!!